peggy

2009-07-31T23:19:00.001+08:00

i went to far east plaza today with my bestie, LIMSIYUN straight after my class. i seriously need to destress. a lot of unnecessary and unwanted stuff have been whirling through my mind. as usual, she was late. this won't change forever. haha. but my day is always worthwhile with her around =]]. angyanling came also at around 7plus. the three of us ate and chat then headed to home. simple yet enjoyable!

i don't know whats the right word to describe my feelngs now. Dilemma, confusion, demoralising, you name it.
this was what aixing told me,
"its a matter of how you look at it, you either let it affect you or you push on and prove it to them that you can be as strong as them, that is how you can improve. and nobody is a burden to the team as long as you are willing to put your heart into trainings"
this somehow encouragement me and makes me think of what i really want to acheive. i don't have to care about how others look at me. but, whats holding me back?? is it the fear of falling hard again?

i really hope boyf will give me more encouragement... sigh

2009-07-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

let me introduce to you, MR.CRANIUM *applause*

its wednesday, lesson ends at 2pm.
as usual, went for sea training at khatib. 12 rounds again.
1st six rounds was okies, but... the next six rounds, my stamina sucks. just sucks
tired.

its my 12 years besties, LIM SIYUN'S birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR<33
its really nice talking to her on the phone.
but, i realise i have neglected her sooo much. not only her, in fact i have neglected all of my besties since school starts. i know i am so bad. i have poor time management :((

some webcam craze when doing project. HAHA

somehow, i don't feel like talking at all

i just wanna go somewhere far far away

2009-07-12T23:57:00.002+08:00

paddling against the waves,
taking every strokes to move the boat,
pulling it hard to make it go faster.
trying to overtake the boat that is infront of me.
kayaking, thats my passion for now =]].
but, how long will this passion of mine last?

i went for sea training yesterday morning and this morning. i think i am crazy. but anyway, there is only one word to describe for saturday's training, SUCKS. too many people and boats were not enough. everything is like so messed up and the atmosphere is weird! but today's training was fine. because not many people went and i manage to complete 12 rounds though i am like the last person to complete! i was really drained by then. i dont even have the strength to get out of the boat!

i have learnt something interesting today, every one round i kayaked, is approximately 900 metres. so after 12 rounds, the distance i have covered is 10800 metres. which is 10.8 kilometres! my jaws dropped when i heard this! can you believe it??

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i am really exhausted, both mentally and physically.
i am really on the verge of breaking down.
i have my limits too..
can someone tells me where do i stand and where do i belong?
i have never felt so demoralized before, is this part of life too?

please remember, when you are pointing at me, three other fingers are pointing back to yourself.
so, think twice =]

2009-07-10T23:44:00.005+08:00

hello blog! sorry for leaving you to rot for so many donkey months. haha
i am back. suddenly got the urge to blog.

its hard to stay optimistic at all times.

ahh~ my projects and exams are neverending! i really hate poly school life. or should i say, i have never love poly school life before, and never will?
sounds better =]
everything is like starting all over from dust again. and i have been somehow treated like dirt just because i cant speak those very fluent english. nobody is perfect.

you'll always be a part of me.

2009-04-13T20:53:00.003+08:00

i always wanted to cut my hair short, and i finally cut it today. but, i think i kind of regret. very HAHA right? there is nothing i could do about it now except waiting for it to grow back =[[. i really looked like a little girl now. i don't know how boyf will react when he see this. thanks to linqi and simin for the accompany. i like that salon =]] though its kind of expensive.

school gonna commence next monday. i am not ready yet. i don't like the feeling of adapting to a new environment. i don't like to start all over again.

2009-04-07T01:43:00.004+08:00

i am back on to the right track finally, after so much of struggling.
but i am still having some mixed feelings.

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i care too much about how i look like in other people's eyes. this is my greatest problem. i need to learn to ignore how others look at me sometimes. i need to have more confidence. if not, i will never ever succeed in big things. because if i don't ignore, i will tend to hesitate, start listening and taking others opinions, thinking that others is right, then i will stop doing everything. i should follow my heart, not others. if i continue to care so much, i am like living in other people's lives instead of mine.

2009-03-19T05:25:00.005+08:00

everybody is slimming down, except me! NOT FAIR!! fats, please leave me.
anyway, shermann was a cute guy =]]. had a long chat with him just now.

2009-03-17T23:43:00.007+08:00

yesterday was my last day of work, finally. no more waking up at 5am anymore. no more 12 hours of work. haha. but seriously, my job is quite slack. if got customers come, then all i need to do is stand there and photocopy their stuff and file it in, if no customer then just sit there and watch movies. cool uh?? but most of the time there is no customer, so i am paid to just sit there and watch movies. haha. but quite tiring also. in the first place, i went to interview for lenovo promoter, end up they put me to photocopy stuff. never mind. its over. haha. anyway, only manage to grab one of the girls to take pic. sad.
PLEASE SUPPORT LENOVO THINKPAD LAPTOP!! BEST!

1000 dollars =]]

ahhh. boyf went to brunei already. went to sent him off just now. he is going for 2weeks!! gonna miss him loads. stupid camp!

2009-03-06T22:39:00.005+08:00

finally had my blogskin changed.

went to vist some teachers at tylc and have lunch in "our canteen" with hellven and peiting. sadly, didnt get to see all the teachers. anyway, we went to town after that. and guess what. we saw 4 brave soul of our age walking down the streets almost naked! see the pics and you know what i am talking about.

brave yea??

2009-03-04T03:21:00.008+08:00

i just dont understand where the problem lies.

sometimes as i think back, i feel that it was very silly of me for falling so deep in love with you again and again. i just never learn my lesson. why.

and i was always wondering if you will leave me for another her one day.

too many things had happened. but i was just too lazy to blog. here are some of the major stuffs that happened and going to happen: i got my results, and was quite bad, my future school will be nyp and my course is nursing(oh man, wish me good luck), was admitted to hospital weeks ago due to kidney infection, it was painful ok and it was super torturing when i was on dripped. thanks to those who actually came and visit. then i finally got a job, but it will only last for a week from 11th to 16th march. better than nothing. then school gonna commence on the 20th april and orientation on the 17th april. i am not quite looking forward to the orientation. dont know what kind of weird people i will meet there. haha.
and yah, happy belated birthday to nigel. may you stay happy always =]]

saw this rainbow at my house there.

2008-12-12T04:59:00.005+08:00

these pictures were taken on ah hua's birthday celebration =]].

6dec, tanjong pagar also =]]

ah long and sweelong =]]

zijian and sweelong =]]

me and ah long =]]

me and ah kor. trying to be cute picture no.1 =]]

dearest and me. trying to be cute picture no.2 =]] HAHA

picture will look nice without their hand logos =]]. ah hua, sweelong, me, zijian

ah hua, sweelong, ah long(behind), me =]]

thats all =]]

2008-12-12T04:11:00.008+08:00

hoho~ i finally got my birthday pictures =]].

celebrated on the 29nov, at tanjong pagar =]]

we are one big family~ thanks for coming =]]

on the left is my beloved man, while on the right is my beloved kor =]]

HAHA. hensen, me, gwenn =]]

MR.TSL, me, guoshuang =]]

me, yanling, jiaen =]]

derek, mr.tsl, me =]]

me, saybing, duck, henry, hensen =]]

ah hua, me =]]

my ever dearest sweetie angyanling, me =]]

jinming, me, hensen =]]

my dearest ahkor angzijian, me. YES, i do cherish him a lot but i doubt he knows lah. haha. always bully me =[[. this is the 3rd year he celebrated my birthday with me.

me, my beloved boyf teesweelong

last but not least, lionel and me =]]

2008-12-08T00:38:00.004+08:00

i need some words of assurance, i need a cry-shoulder.

oh dear, i am really in deep trouble this time. i said something which is so terrible. but i guess that is the only way out now. our communication broke down. there is no way we could communicate anymore. i am sorry. really sorry.

here are some memorable pictures took in KL trip on the 27nov-29nov

we were on the coach heading to KL =]]

those chandeliers in the shopping centres were cool

saw this in one of the shops. they have "transparent chairs". haha. its almost invisible.

this is the view of KL famous twin tower from far.

this is the super near view of twin tower. look very fake right. haha. i took it from quite a near distance. the tower is super super big.

the night view of twin tower. i took it from super far. LOL. but its really very beautiful

looks yummy uh? indeed, its damn yummy. =]]. totally diff from singapore.

haha. its us again =]]

YES, the vehicle is INSIDE the buliding. cool

foot massage after a long day of walking =]]. pain but shiok.

selling corns in the middle of the road. damn tasty. i had two =]]

KL's lrt =]]

they had a driver for their lrt =]]

us again =]].

baby, i like how the way you hold me in the rain. how i wish time could stop for us at that very moment.

不是一个分手的理由丑

2008-11-14T01:20:00.016+08:00

考完试了.
我应该感到开心才对.
但我却感到非常烦燥.
我是怎么了?

丑, 不是一个分手的理由.

2008-11-11T23:34:00.012+08:00

OLEVEL IS FINALLY OVER! and yes, today was the last paper. quite tough. but never mind. its over =]. i have waited for this day to come, and finnaly its here. haha. went to compass to meet neo baba and angyanling after the science paper. stupid angyanling somehow delete my DJmax data in my psp and can still play happily without knowing that she had actually created a new profile already. i was super angry and almost killed her. but i think again, no point being so angry over a game data when friends are more important, much more important. a data can be created again when it has been deleted, but a friendship is hard to mend back again once it is broken. so forgive her of course =]]. LOL.

after all this, went to cityhall to meet some of my classmates for lunch. wanted to eat happypot at makansutra. but we went there kinda too early because the stalls was closed so we had popeye instead at the singapore flyer there. not as nice as the one located at airport. we chat, we laugh, we joke, we camwhore. haha. maybe because we have lesser chance to see each other already, thats why we tend to cherish and treasure the time we had more. humans are like that, only learn to cherish when things are no longer there. anyway, they are a bunch of good friends. never regret being friends with them. time flies, and one year had past. after our lunch and stuff, i went to bugis and bought a BRAUN BUFFEL wallet for MR.TSL. cost me $123. now i am broke =].

here are some of the pic we took =]]

my 11 years besties and me =]]

love her to bits<3

jiaen with her small small eyes and me. HAHA

peiting and me =]]

stephanie and me =]]

my bro junda and me. YES, is a he.

my future-to-be boyfriend hellven. HAHA. just kidding.

we look like those couple taking pictures. LOL

and our stupid faces =]].

i know my hair is weird lah. till now i still cant accept that my hair has become like that. LOL. thanks to the stupid hairdresser who cut my hair until so ugly that makes me need to cut again myself .

i have found out that going to sleep and start dreaming is another way of avoiding my troubles and loneliness. it brings me to another world... somehow

2008-10-27T05:53:00.005+08:00

i am really stress up. especially my art. i am lost and i felt stupid.

anyway, this is what happened to my classmates for studying too hard.

they start to do things so differently

they even start to communicate differently.

HAHA. they are really funny. i couldnt stop laughing when i was taking all this pictures for them.

2008-07-26T04:48:00.003+08:00

its 26july and its been very long since i last blogged. well, its pretty late now, 4plus in the morning. i have just finished watching 2 movies ; COYOTE UGLY & STEP UP 2. i suddenly have the urge to blog after watching these 2 movies. i enjoyed watching though it is some outdated movies. both movies teaches me that being persistive and strong determination do make dreams come alive. don't live in other's shadows or deams but live and believe in yourself. its time for me to work harder for my dreams and goals. way to go peggy~

2008-06-06T14:08:00.003+08:00

went to far east with linqi, simin and steph. it will be more fun if huiwen is there. before heading down to far east, we went to plaza sing for our lunch at cafe'cartel. yummy yummy~. but linqi kept complaining about how bad the food was. haha. its really been long since i last went shopping with them =]. we are not studying in the same school anymore, thats why its harder to meet up, as our time always crash. anyway, i manage to buy a pair of shoe and a pair of sandal after walking for like 4 to 5 hours. haha. i always have dilemma in choosing and deciding on which to buy. thats why i always end up buying only a few stuffs.
sad. didn't manage to take pictures with simin and steph. take good care girls. misses =]

i am glad we have put our unhappiness behind us though i still feel abit weird. but at least, we have overcome our problems and misunderstanding =]]

2008-06-05T16:44:00.001+08:00

finally, its the last day of school. holidays, here i come =]]. today is also the last day for mdm wu. the principal doesn't want to renew her contract with TYLC just because she is always sick and taking MC. i mean whats wrong being sick?? mdm wu is already 40plus going 50. its really unfair to her. somemore this is a PRIVATE SCHOOL, not a government school or whatever. so strict for what?? teachers ain't robot. you as the principal, always take MC and leave too. bitch~

anyway, we had a farewell party for mdm wu. the class shared some money to buy her a cake and a big card with our class picture on it. really can't bear to see her go.

take care my dearest teacher =]]. i will always remb you.

2008-05-31T16:56:00.003+08:00

A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog.

B) tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tagged the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
peggy says : i will give him 2 tight slaps and walk away. then go with another guy.

#2. if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
peggy says : to be a top model. hahah. dream what.

#3. what will your dream wedding to be like?
peggy says : never really think about it before. but hopefully, a romantic and unforgettable one

#4. are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
peggy says : YES. very.

#5. what's your ideal lover like?
peggy says : i have already found mine =]. but hope that he can grow taller and be more understanding.

#6. what is more blessed? loving someone or being loved by someone?
peggy says : being loved by someone is always more blessed.

#7. how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
peggy says : dont have to wait anymore. he is right beside me playing psp now.

#8. if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
peggy says : what else can i do? sit there and watch how loving they are lor. hahah.

#9. is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
peggy says : yup. i just had a brokedown few days back. regarding my studies.

#10. is being tagged fun?
peggy says : no comment. LOL

#11. how do you see yourself in 10 years time?
peggy says : happily married with 2 kids. hahah

#12. who are currently the most important people to you?
peggy says : mrTEESWEELONG, my 'brothers' and close friends, family

#13. what kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
peggy says : is a big bully because he always bully me. joker plus slacker and lastly, still a wonderful ahkor after all =]]

#14. would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
peggy says : married but poor =]]. at least got someone to share your woes with

#15. what's the first thing you do every morning?
peggy says : thinking, " arghh. can i have a time machine to turn back the time so that i can sleep longer?"

#16. would you give all in a relationship?
peggy says : i would give almost all but not everything. afraid to be hurt again.

#17. if you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
peggy says : must see who is the one that love me most.

#18. what type of friends do you like?
peggy says : generous, outgoing, mature

#19. what type of friends do you dislike?
peggy says : stingy, irritating, proud, bomberman, and those that always put aeroplane. LOL

tagged by : ANG ZIJIAN.
and those 8 lucky people are
- simin
- linqi
- yanling
- yuanbao
- seang
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lazy to write the rest out =]

2008-05-30T22:51:00.001+08:00

TO SEANG AND JIAN: sorry for the late reply of tag =]]. LOL

finally, i have totally recovered from my fever. i was super sick and the doctor almost send me to the hospital to " diao shui ". at that time, i thought i was down with dengue fever because i keep having hot and cold fever, body ache and vomitting. but fortunately, no red spot on my body. if have, thats it. be prepared to visit me at the hospital with fruits basket. hahah. today was the last day of my midyear papers. felt so relieved but i think i won't be getting the results that i desired. i have been slacking so much after the march holidays and not studying hard enough. hmm. anyway, since its the last paper already, mrTEESWEELONG brought me to newyork newyork for dinner as a celebration. hahha. lame right. but the food there was super super nice. really worth Q-ing.

hee. i ate the spareribs with the strawberry doopyshake while mrTEESWEELONG ate the cheesy chicken with the chocolate dont know dont know what. forgot the name already. hahah. shiok~!

2008-05-11T15:24:00.004+08:00

yesterday went to shereen's house for steamboat as a celebration of her birthday. actually it was like sort of a gathering. i met yanling, baba, meisiew and yien. as usual, we ate alot, laugh alot, and joke alot =]]. hee. they are becoming more and more pretty. yanling is still as cute with loud laughter, baba is still as short and noisey, meisiew is still as pretty and silm, yien is still as skinny.

2008-05-07T18:22:00.002+08:00

my back is still having a painful sunburnt from last saturday`s sentosa trip with MR.teesweelong and some schoolmates. but my face has started peeling badly already. my face looks so ugly lah. the peeling on my face look like those survivor that managed to escape from a burning house. see and you will understand what i meant.

i sent my mum to the airport early in the saturday morning and went straight to sentosa after that. i reached there since 9am. yes 9am to 5pm. von they all reached only after 2pm. but its still a fun day. haha. end up only me and MR.teesweelong had a bad baddy sunburnt, like 2 red lobsters.

cool. watermelon; CHOCOLATE; original.

haha. the 2 lobsters =]]

2008-04-27T13:31:00.007+08:00

these are some pictures of my classmates =]].

sentosa on 25.04.08, friday

took some pictures before heading to sentosa.

its a shortpants-sexy legs day.

everybody was so hyperactive and excited!

nobody was in the mood to study. haha.

me; felicia; miss liau

its a no jeans day!

hellven with his sexy 6packs =]]

yummy~

little india; 24.04.08,thursday =]]

2008-04-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

heys, i am back to blog. REALLY back =]]. thanks to all my dearest friends out there who keep complaining about the rotting of my blog. HAHA. this shows how much u guys LOVES&MISSES me. LOL. its really been long since i last used my computer.

well, life is good so far. just that its kinda bored. every monday to friday, school school and school from 9.30am to 3plus 4plus, then straight to home sweet home. not much energy left to even slack for awhile. pathetic and lifeless eh? but what to do? i had already wasted and ruined 4years of my life doing nothing, thinking ways to skip school, finding ways to cheat through exams in secondary school. i believe thats what most people did too, just that i am the unlucky one and didnt make it to olevels. so private school is the only path that i am left with. so no matter how tiring it is or how tough it is, i must endure and prove to those who once look down on me that i can make it. though life in private school is slightly different, i have never regret studying in TYLC before and never will. thank god that i leave nanchiau, if not my studies will still be in a big mess now.

when i was viewing some friend's profiles in friendster just now, i then start to realise how much my life has change, realise that how far i have drifted away from them, realise how much i have sacrifice for my studies. i really miss those life that i used to had with them- those playful and rebellious life. unlike the present life i am having now, so lifeless and dull. but if i turn back and be what or who i used to be, thats really the end of me and my future. thats also the end to all my hardwork. i am glad at least those times are still living in my memory =]]. one shouldnt asked for so much. be contented with whatever u have now.

i have really learn alot of meaningful things about life and of course, i have learn to love him more too =]]. hee

2008-01-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

was fucking sick and took a 2 days mc for myself just now. had quite a high fever and a throat infection. still feeling kinda giddy now. but at least i am abit better after taking those medicine that worth $48. LOL. its so damn expensive yea. i didn't know it until when i was paying. haha. impossible to tell the nurse that i don't want the medicine because it was too expensive and walk away. so i just pay unwillingly. haha. i won't go back there anymore.

why aren't you by my side when i need you the most? you always want me to be more understanding. but did you try and understand how badly i would actually felt and how much i had misses you when you were in army?
you were being physically tortured, while i was being mentally tortured. which is worst?

2008-01-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

hee. mrTEE'SWEELONG went to fetch me from school today. he waited for me at redhill mrt station. thats very sweet of him. haha. after that i went home to change and we headed down to AMK hub to watch 'one missed call'. wasn't really a good one. quite disappointed with the ending. but never mind. at least i watched it with my loves one. hee. so no matter how disppointing the show is, i still won't regret watching it =]]. thanks darling.

2008-01-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

i am tired. i need some sleep now. yesterday i didnt sleep at all and went straight to school just now. was tonning with ahjian they all. because yesterday was ahjian last day of freedom. hahha. sounds like going to jail right. nah. don't get me wrong. he is going to be a real man. he is going army. LOL! finally, its his turn. don't worry kor. i will miss you =]]. sorry that i can't send you to army. take good care okies =]].

can feel that how much he can't bear to cut botak. because i was with him when he was cutting.

2008-01-07T18:07:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of school. well, one word to describe. sucks! school starts at 9.30 and ends at 4. i catch no ball to what teacher was teaching in maths. and i was in different class with siyun and jiaen. so i only can see them during lunchbreak. but i still manage to make new friends. hahah. they are fun, and kinda weird. LOL. weird as in their habits and stuff. life in YLC is totally different from nan'chiau. in YLC, i can't walk out of the class as much as how i did in nan'chiau. hahah. because there is no back door, and the toilet is IN the classroom. LOL. in YLC, i have to pay full attention as the teachers there teach real fast. but at least students there were not as much. my class only have around 14 people. cool uh. no textbooks =], teachers only use notes and worksheets. YLC uniform is only a either black or white polo'tee. hee. thats life in YLC.

sigh*. olevel art questions were released today. those questions were tough. how i wish i could take olevel art this year. i don't care how tough it is. i just want it to be 1 of my olevel subjects. i miss art!

2008-01-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

today orientation in YLC sucks!. really sucks! its dead bored. it is only the 1st day of school, and i had some problems there already. met some idiotic freaks finding troubles for us(me,jiaen,siyun,fer), but of course we pay them back double. hahah. thats the price to pay, for thinking that we were nice to be bully. come on kids! go home and suck your mother pussy! fuck off if u all are here to create troubles for others. what for staying at this school wasting spaces. after this sucky orientation, yanling,me,siyun and yien went shopping at far east. was tired! walk alot. but i managed to buy a top and a pair of heels. quite satisfated and happy. hahah. thats all. i am lazy to continue typing =]].

awwww! i am having this sore eyes for 2 days already!!

2008-01-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

well, today's not a very good day. i woke up at 2plus, bathe and prepare then headed down to nan'chiau. i went to see mr'ong and handed him the withdrawal letter. means, i am officially out of nan'chiau. i am not a student of there anymore. then i went to had my lunch in canteen. i had 2 bowls of noodles and a big bowl of soup. LOL. was damn hungry! so i ate alot. after that, i went to see mdm'ngo regarding the o'level art stuff. sigh*. i am unable to go back to nan'chiau for my o'level art lessons. before that was allow by mr'ong already, but the teacher must be mdm'ngo. in the end, art teacher was change. not mdm'ngo anymore. so i can't go back. fuck sia. thats what ruined my mood man. sigh*. i cried to mdm'ngo. i really have high hopes in going back for art lessons. i really can't bear to let go art as my subject. without art, i m only left with 5 subjects for my o'level. which mean, i have to pass every single subjects. if not, thats the end. like mdm'ngo had said, people do have setbacks, things may not always be smooth sailing and things always turn out to what we don't expected it to be. but must it happened to me this time? sigh*. i really love art.

peggy''mdm ngo(the best teacher).

i looked so sucks in this picture. my eyes are still with tears.

haha. my lunch =]]

mdm'ngo is really a very good teacher. she is always there for me when i need her. i always cry to her. she is the teacher i tells everything to. she don't look down on me like how some other teachers do. she is always very supportive, she never gave up on me before. she is just the best teacher i ever had =]]. i love her! wonder if should i envy my classmates for having loads of homework or should i thanks that i m not in sec5 because i don't have any homework? they complaint that they have loads of homework. can see that they are really very stress. jiayou =]. sigh*. i am having a stupid orientation tomorrow at 9.15. thats early. and i hate orientation! it sucks!

i don't know who are those people that are true to me. at times, everybody just seems to be so fake. they just act like they really care. human are just cunning. they only treats someone good when they are in need of something.

2008-01-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

today was a tiring day! haha. this morning i went to the private school at redhill to pay my school fees with mum. and i took my uniform already. its just an normal black polo'tee. i will miss wearing nan'chiau uniform for sure. sigh*. after paying school fees, i went to lavender to make my new passport. then headed to plaza singapura and collect my mp3. my mp3 was beyond hope already. so they changed a new one for me. cool*. hahha. went home straight after shopping abit with mum at carrefour. so it was a tiring tiring day. went to so many places. somemore i only slept for like an hour plus.

sigh*. when paying the school fees, i can feel the heartache in mum. though she didn't express it out, i can feel it. afterall its all her hard earn money, and she is the only one that is supporting this family. at times, i really felt so useless. i m like a burden to her. n'level is not that hard and yet i failed it. i am just adding unecessary burden to her. sorry mum. i will really work hard this year. i won't let you down. i love u =]].

2008-01-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 200'8 TO EVERYBODY =]] !!

i didn't go for countdown at town or marina, i spent my new year eve at punggol park, bbq'ing. haha. weird to bbq at there. but was fun =]]. as usual, with zijian and seang they all. its like sort of a gathering before school starts. i ate and drank alot. and of course the chicken wings were nice as it was prepared by zijian. hahah. YANLING was drunk but not me. neither did i vomit. hahhaha. for the first time our ALCOHOLIC'QUEEN was so drunk and vomited soooo much. she totally don't know what she was doing. heee. thanks minsong for driving her home =]]. and thanks zijian for organising this bbq. LOVES*. aww! i am still having a bad sore throat. i am in pain for like 10days already.

it is a brand new year and it is a new start for me in a new school. hope that everything will be a smooth sailing one. i must really work hard to pass my o'level. i cannot slack and play like how i used to anymore. i really regretted playing so much and end up getting bad grades. i can't afford to waste anymore precious time. i have to be more independent!

2007-12-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

just woke up not long from my so called "short nap". hahah. and had cooked some pastas for my late dinner. was delicious!! LOL. today morning i went to take entry test from the private school at redhill. was like so damn far. have to walk a long long way before reaching the school. after that, i went to plaza singapura to send my mp3 for service. my mp3 can't even be charge, neither could it be on. and i slam it real hard on the floor yesterday. can't control, i was too angry. actually it makes no difference whether i slam it or not, because afterall i still need to send it for service. hahha. throughout these journeys, i was damn bored. i was alone. it have been a long time since i last went out alone. somewhere its to places that are far from home. no choice! i forgot to bring my phone out. so i can't call anybody. hee. but don't know for what i went to bring another phone out. but heng lah, because i still can make some phone calls using that phone. but, i was still alone. so didn't shop much and went home after sending my mp3 for service.

and thats all! i m going out now. gonna meet zijian they all =]].

2007-12-25T03:37:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYBODY =]] !!

i was having fever but i still went to town for countdown. i am always stubborn. hee. as usual, loads loads loads of people. so damn crowded. but i still had fun =]], because i enjoyed spraying at others! haahaa. and of course fights and quarrels were involved too. i only went there for awhile and manage to catched the last train at 1plus going 2. i tried my luck and make a silly wish just now. i don't wish for a big big present, i just wish to get back both my msn and friendster accounts. and my wish really came true!! LOL. i can't believe it myself too. i did got back both my accounts. miracle do happens =]]. but of course, not that bloody hacker that surrender it. hee.

lets sing along and, cheers!

2007-12-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

guess what?? i went to sentosa again today. hahah. this time, i went with only quency and yanling. end up i had fever even before i got home. LOL. think because i went there on the 21 and went there again today. was quite fun also. hehe. we did a little little bit of cam'whoring. but those pictures was kinda ugly due to lack of sleep for the 3 of us. my eyes is like so damn shag! after sentosa, we went to meet siyun for dinner and shopping =]]. as usual, we laugh and joke around. hee.

this few days, i had so many things to worry about, i had so many things to think about. but i realise i m more busy consoling, entertaining n joking around with these girls. i may laugh like nobody business, but i am not fine at all. i have learn to hide all my unhappiness well. because so far, nobody has felt or know how i am really feeling inside. maybe, it is the best way to remain like that for the time being.

2007-12-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

hehe. just came back from sentosa not long. was a fun day especially those photo taking with some of my classmates. i didn't know that there was a class gathering. thanks FUYU for inviting me =]]. was weird that that i didn't had sunburnt. because usually i was the first to kena. haha. but not this time. weird. anyway, we only stayed there for like 4hours plus. then we went off seperate ways. i can't bear to leave them. but what to do? good times always end fast. real fast

huiting'peggy'linqi'simin

yuanbao'peggy

clemens'peggy

the guy i love taking picture with. he is so damn shy. LOL

twist*. and thats me =]

simin'peggy

zhiyong'peggy

the guy i used to dote on so much =]

simin'peggy

peggy'linqi

i have missed out alot of nice pictures. but this is all i have recieved from linqi and simin. think they have forgot or what. hmmmh. 2007 is coming to an end, and its time to bid goodbye to all my dearest classmates. we gonna study in different schools next year though are we still taking the same paper. thanks for this outing. sigh*. i remembered before taking the n'level results, i just can't wait to leave this school. i have some serious problem in there and keep wanting to leave. i even stupidly hope to failed my n'level. and now, my so called " dreams " has come true yet i just can't bear to leave. humans are just weird creature. they become softhearted when others starts treating them good, and i am one of them. hahha.

2007-12-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LINQI =]]
sorry now than wish you. because i wasn't free to blog the past few days. LOVES*

i am back to post about my life and stuff. i wasn't feeling good the past few days. i feel sucky and sad. i did not make it to sec5. which mean i FAILED my n'level. i got 11. i passed every single subject, including my combined humanities. but i just couldn't make it. on the result day(18th dec), i told myself i will not cry no matter what kind of result i am getting. in the end, thanks to LINQI and ENXIN, i cried. they chased after me for my results after i have got it. well, i am glad that nigel did pass, but we didn't talk much. i was planning to give him the picture of us which i have developed it out long ago. i don't have the courage to do that. i don't even have the courage to look straight into his eyes, so how am i gonna pass it to him? i don't think he will want it anyway. he will chuck it away for sure. nevermind. i will just keep it. hmmm. i seems to be so drifted away from my classmates. they don't talk to me like how they used to, they don't smile at me too. nevermind. at least i get to see them for the last time. take care friends! i may mean nothing to you guys, but you all will always be in my memories.

i have decided to take private o'levels, but haven decide on which private school to go yet. yesterday, i went back to nanchiau. i went back to see mr ong about my o'level art. to my surprise, he allows me to go back next year for my o'level art lessons. shocked yea? hee.

2007-12-16T05:24:00.000+08:00

i went to ikea at tampines with yanling this afternoon to see bookshelf for my room. hahah. very fun =]]. we laughed and joked all the way like nobody business. haven even sleep and i have so much energy to laugh with her. LOL. after ikea, we went to giant. same thing, we laughed and entertained each other like nobody business. people think that we are crazy, but no wrong having fun though its kinda abnormal to laugh non-stop. haha.

bloody mother fucker! hacked into my msn account and disturbed my friends. come on. stop doing all this childish stuff. u are clever to have hacked my friendster too. but i ain't stupid. i can track you down. just you wait and be ready to suck your mother pussy =]]. you think everything will be fine after changing my password for both msn and friendster? please get alive and stop dreaming. fuck off asshole

2007-12-14T14:06:00.000+08:00

i just reached home from mandai hill camp. i went to sent my dearest sweelong to army with his family. sigh. i can't bear to see him go though he is booking out on hari raya( 19th dec). i will be real bored without his accompany. hmm. is like so empty without him. but i have to get used to it. is 5 days from today onwards to 19th dec. it is gonna be a long long longy 5 days. i will miss you loads =].

before cutting botak =]]

after cutting botak. HAHA

2007-12-13T12:17:00.000+08:00

went to k'box yesterday at chinatown with linqi and yuanbao. i wasnt feeling good. too tired. i only slept for like 1 hour plus or so in the morning before meeting them. hmmmh. yesterday, i had alot of things in my mind. alot of mixed feelings too. keep thinking whether is it a right decision to be back with sweelong. i am afraid that he will hurt me like how he used to. i am afraid that he will leave me for other girls again. i am afraid of many many things, even those small thingy things. am i being foolish to have trust him again? did i choose my happiness right?

2007-12-11T06:20:00.000+08:00

hee. i just reached home from ah'hua`s bbq at AMK. quite fun =]]. happy that sweelong and ahjian they all could get along well =]]. hmmh. we all drink and some were drunk. i vomited. LOL. i saw loads of funny action from those drunk guys. hahah. i have uploaded some pictures. but of course not those funny action pictures. if not i will be killed. LOL. enjoy!

eve'peggy

peggy'ahjian(my cutest kor ever) LOL

eve'yanling'peggy =]]

there goes my act'cute kor again

zijian'sweelong'peggy =]

3 babes! yanling'eve'peggy =]]

mei'kor

the 3 drunken hunks; ahseang'derek'ahlong(behind)

2007-12-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

what the fuck! i can't believe all these words were said by you. its like so hurting. i almost cried. but i didn't. i MUST be strong! REAL STRONG. but my heart still aches. i m like a bloody fool the past few days. i wait and wait and wait for your msg or call. i keep telling myself that u will contact me soon, just that u are too busy to do that. but i was utterly wrong! your heart isn't here already. our love died long ago and i didnt knew it till TODAY. i knew that something was not right, but i didn't think much bout it. and finally it really happened. hell! if i hasn't asked, i will be still kept in the dark. sigh*. but seriously, i only have myself to blame. i was the one that choose to put a stop to this relationship. no use regretting it, i deserve it. no point turning back. its a history of us already. but i still misses you =]]. take care.

well. thanks for everything that you have done for me =]].

2007-12-08T06:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO JIEWEN =]].
hee. finally its your turn. enjoy your day.

i just got home not long. today was quite fun. i went to a job interview for beer promoter in the late afternoon at toa payoh. their pay not bad. 1 hour 8 bucks=].work for 4hours a day. COOL. went with quency amanda and yuanbao. yanling came after that. hmmmh. then went for a late movie with sweelong at the cathay. we watched enchanted. nice movie =]]. hee. and guess what? i saw CHEN ZICAI! he was so charming and handsome. i can't helped it but to keep looking at him. don't think he noticed it. haahaa. wanted to have billy bombers or swensens for dinner, but we went to plaza singapura to eat mee hun kuay instead. LOL. their mee hun kuay were super nice =]. always went there to eat. hee. after movie jiu went back sengkang and slack le. SORRY SWEELONG, make u spent so much on me. hee. hope u did enjoyed yourself today=]]. hmmh. i said something so fucked to ahjian just now. i felt so bitch and regretted now. ASS! hope he is not angry.

took at toa'payoh. the kuku face of quency'du'jieying

the pink christmas tree at cathay =]

peggy'sweelong

sweelong'peggy

sweelong'peggy again

a charming smile of his =]]

well, it have been 4 days already. not a single msg or call from you. what are you trying to do or tell me? hmmmh. although i am the one that choose to end this relationship, believe it or not, i still misses you =]]. u may not contact me anymore. its okiez. i only have myself to blame now.

bigbigbiggest* SIGH*. what kind of answer should i give on the 10th? positive or negative?

should i or should i not? *arghhh*. will you still hurt me like how you used to? will you leave me for other girls again? fuck! who can understand how i am feeling now??

2007-12-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

FUCK man! i shouldn't have went out last night. i LOST my keys. i don't even know where i have lost it. arghhhh. this is how careless i could be! i didn't even know i have lost it until i was about to go home with quency. i m like so dumb and retard.next time must hang my keys at around my neck. so that it won't be lost again. hahaha. i have no choice, so i went jogging with shaosiang they all to jalan kayu. LOL. its in the middle of the night somemore, kinda stupid. passer-by might think that we have gone bonkers. heng there is a pair of shoe outside my house, if not i gonna jog with slippers. hahah. jog all the way there to drink 1 1ooplus then cycle back. so damn tiring. after all those jogging and cycling, i went back sengkang to meet sweelong and guoshuang at plaza mac. i m like so pathetic. can't go home until my mum wake up. finally i m at home, but i can't sleep. cause sweelong and guoshuang were at my house drinking. LOL. in such an early morning somemore! yanling came after that. hmmmh. and thats all! going out for dinner soon.

big big SIGH*. i don't know what relationship we are in now. neither do i know what i am doing nor what i really want. am i too stupid to know, or am i too lost to know?

ohmyfuckinghell. i am getting my results on 18th'DEC! wish me goody good luck man!

2007-12-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

today was the last day working at expo already. cause the roadshow only last for 4 days =]]. and finally i knew what was that blur/cute guy name. his name is nathan, nice name. we did exchanged number too =]]. hmmmh. today wasn't a very good day either. felt kinda leftout. cause those starhub guys were busy talking and entertaining yanling. nowadays, guys only talk to pretty babes. i ani't pretty nor attractive, thats why i was leftout by them. then siying's boyfriend came too and accompany her. suck'sd man. who likes this kind of sucky feeling? heng, nathan did came and talk to me. hahah. he really have the damn blur look. LOL. today alibaba damn much to customers. 1 of the customers even complaint me to benny. complaint infront of me somemore. heng benny didn't scold. just alot alot alot of people! buay tahan. even before it open, people already start crowding outside. 1 word to describe singaporean, kiasu! haha. i slack alot also. keep going out for smoke'break. then keep walking around. but overall, i still have this sucky mood following me this whole day.

well, i saw tis LG phone which fengzhu was promoting at starhub also. so damn nice lah.
wanted to buy but cant cause mum wasn't there. hmmmh. at this roadshow they are selling for only $298. after roadshow, it will be $598. if i had knew bout this phone earlier, i sure have bought it. wasted! i was really dumb. dumbest girl in town. somemore i knew how my pay was caculated only today. LOL. ani't i dumb?

SWEET'SIXTEEN

2007-12-01T01:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET'SIXTEEN TO ME =]].
hahah. finally its my turn though its over. cause i only had the time now to post.

it is another baddy baddy bad day, though its my birthday. birthday doesn't mean i will have smooth sailing for everything i do. yea? i am working at expo on such a special day. working as a starhub promoter. i was having gastric pain for this whole morning. suck'sd. worst, no calls or messages from him. i might as well bang the wall and die. hmmmh. first time working as starhub promoter, so kinda lost. customers kept asking those alibaba questions. don't know how to answer them. haha. hmmmh. half of my voice was gone after talking sooooooooo much. hee. my voice is kinda sexy now =]]. i m not going for work tomorrow. no voice to alibaba with customers. well, i can say its the worst of the worst birthday i ever had compared to the other 15 birthdays. still must work, then no voice, an ASSHOLE made me cried just now somemore, no celebration. what a sweet'sixteen i had.

met this blur blur guy at the roadshow. kinda cute. hee. but i didnt ask for his name. never mind. sure got chance to c him again =]]

2007-11-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

heya =] ! its my first posting, and i guess it will be a long one. well, i just came back from my chalet. kinda tired now. hmmmh. lots of things had happened during the chalet. joy, laughter, tears, and even some angry-ness. haha. i opened this chalet was to celebrate my sweet'sixteen=] in advance. just in case i have something more important on my actual day=]]. i had 1 vodlka from wilson and bearman, another vodlka from larry, 1 black label and 1 remy martin from my mum=]], 1 pear vodlka from yanling which is her birthday present, 2 red wine and 12 cans of anchor from ahjian derek they all. THANKS THANKS =]]. i drank and was drunk on both nites. LOL.

First day of the chalet was horrible. i checked in at 7pm. damn late. was busy preparing those food and stuffs. i wasn't very happy actually. i don't really felt the excitment at all. cause most people have school the next day, so no much people stayed overnight. hmmh. my mum n her boyfriend came. they chat n drink with zijian. they seems to like him alot alot =]]. haaha. after they left, world war 3 starts. this 1 quarrel with this 1. that 1 not happy with who and who. this 1 wants to fight with that 1. that night was chaos! i shouted at them and cried. they won't understand how pain my heart was to see them like that. so i drink n drink till i drunk . so thats how that night end. SIGHH*

Second day wasn't any better. when i woke up, the room was only left with 3 pathetic souls ; me, zijian and eve. i don't know why also. so for the whole afternoon, we were watching some lame dvds. hahah. this was how pathetic we were! at night same lah. eat, drink, smoke, talk. wasn't that fun also. around 3plus 4plus, i was like almost drunk already. they suddenly brought out the cake n start singing. i was so touched. heee. thanks YANLING'SWEETIE and EVE for the delicious cake =]]. LOVES*. after those cake stuff, i recieved my best present ever, zijian(mastermind), derek(victim), yien(victim) and seang(another victim) shaved off their ampit hair. LOL! sexy! their "wei da" action was my present =]]. hahaha!

actually, the credits mostly goes to zijian. hee. without him, i don't know what or how my chalet would be like. he really helped me alot. he accompanied me to market, helped me fried beehoon, help me with the chicken wings, helped me carried loads of stuff without complaining. he even make me laugh by doing those ampit hair thing =]]. he was with me when i was crying. he drank with me. he even help me chu tou when yuzheng tone was abit harsh towards me. he really take goody goody care of me . was really touched! i will never forget those moments =]]. it will be in my heart always. thanks my dearest ahkor =]]. LOVES*

okays! thats all for today =]]. YAWNS*
lastly, thanks to those who came to my chalet =]]

peggy

不是一个分手的理由 丑

SWEET'SIXTEEN

不是一个分手的理由丑